Saturday, June 9, 2012

At Least I'm Safe Inside My Mind...

Or...not.
(Totally stole a Spongebob line up there.)


So what if this is me, stuck in my head, going:
HELLO! HELLO? I NEED A LITTLE HELP HERE!
That's what I feel like lately. I'm stuck inside my head with everything spinning wildly out of control. Naturally, a page for 'help, please' goes out, and I'm thinking that page is reaching the wrong beings, and they're answering.


Seriously. First it started with, I was just a little stuck, seeing a few things I didn't want to (some of which I suspect to have been projected from my subconscious...) and with a few emotions like depression hovering around on the edge of my mind. So I wanted it to go away, I started asking for a little help with shutting my mind up every now and then so I could feel happier and not see creepy things...all good, right?
Uh...no. Instead of what I wanted to happen, something like this is now me:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LIFE IS SO--oh my God, I'm so sad and depressed and *sniffle*--COMMERCIALS? ARGH! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! *chucks remote to the TV on the floor and spends the next ten minutes searching for the batteries*
And this:
Needles! Ow! STOP POKING ME WITH NEEDLES AND OTHER SHARP OBJECTS!
And seeing the ceiling move, and bloodstains on the wall, and having weird thoughts I can't get away from that I either don't want to have or aren't even mine in the first place. Fun.
And there are shadowy beings following me around and sometimes, their words come out of my mouth instead of MY words.
And I'm having weird black holes in my memory, and someone will say to me, "We went here this morning, don't you remember?" and I don't remember. So I'm just a TAD concerned here....(did you catch the sarcasm? I'm actually really, REALLY concerned here.)


I suspect much of this is caused by dark beings following me around, and somehow, some of them have actually showed up in my room, even when they never could before. I don't know really what's going on, but I cleared them out of my room and I will not let them come back. Period.
I still feel like I'm going insane, and I figure it's partly me, partly them--although I'd be doing a lot better without the 'partly them'. I'm trying to get rid of them, but so far, no dice....they're here to stay, so they tell me.
Fun.


Well, they're going to go one way or the other, because I want my mind back to myself, so I can get out of it and so it will stop falling to pieces and creating hallucinations.


There are a few solutions I have found for my problems, and on top of sharing my life with you all, that's why I'm writing this, to share said solutions:
Crystals. One for protection, one for headaches (THEY'RE BACK FROM THE DEAD!), one for healing my mind....yeah.
Angels. I'm going to ask them for help. According to Coral (best friend) Raphael would be the angel to ask for help with fixing the insanity of my mind...and my guardian angels are probably best for keeping the dark beings away from me. I'll just have to make sure they're really my guardian angels and not dark beings pretending to be the angels...
So...wish me luck, please. Those are the solutions for this issue, and if anyone has anything to add, PLEASE COMMENT.
~Ashe

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Demons and Hallucinations

Oh, hey, if anyone's wondering why I named the last post 'Secret Society of Mine' it's because a, I felt like it, and b, this kind of does feel like a secret society.


Now, on to my more important stuff.


I was at this field trip for school with my friends a few days ago. It was an end-of-the-year-last-day sort of thing, and so for a while I was kind of hanging out by myself and there were a lot of people who weren't really people around. Mostly demons and spirits. And they were doing stuff like poking, and sticking me with needles, and I figure by the end of the day I must have looked like an ethereal porcupine. Gotta love porcupines. Anyway, I had a tough time dealing with that when I just wanted to hang out with people, and so I asked the angels to make them go away and hey, what do you know, it worked! I had fun the second half of the day. Lesson learned: that's how to deal with demons and such. Try and ask the angels to make them go away.


Now, if you're like my best friend, who had demons pretending to be angels and her guardian angels...I'm not quite sure how to deal with that yet. Possibly using obsidian (black rock) for protection might be good, but that probably isn't enough. I'll ask one of my teachers about it and post their response on here soon for anyone who's having that issue. If anyone's had that issue and dealt with it with good results, please share what you did in a comment, to help other people. Thanks!


By the way, black is a color of protection, but that doesn't mean it's a color you'd want to see in an aura. While black in an aura can sometimes mean protection, it can also mean rage or jealousy, so if you see black in someone's aura, be wary, and don't assume it means protection. Here's a list of aura color meanings I've found to be pretty reliable:



RED AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the physical body, hart or circulation.The densest color, it creates the most friction. Friction attracts or repels; money worries or obsessions; anger or unforgiveness; anxiety or nervousness


Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.


Muddied red: Anger (repelling)


Clear red: Powerful, energetic, competitive, sexual, passionate


Pink-bright and light: Loving, tender, sensitive, sensual, artistic, affection, purity, compassion;new or revieved romantic relationship. Can indicate clairaudience.


Dark and murky pink: Immature and/or dishonest nature


Orange Red: Confidence, creative power


In a good, bright and pure state, red energy can serve as a healthy ego.


ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions.The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to apetites and addictions;


Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.


YELLOW AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the spleen and life energy. It is the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going.


Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.


Bright lemon-yellow: Struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship; fear of losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power.


Clear gold metallic, shiny and bright: Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person.


Dark brownish yellow or gold: A student, or one who is straining at studying; overly analitical to the point of feeling fatigued or stressed; trying to make up for "lost time" by learning everything all at once.


GREEN AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to heart and lungs.It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change.Love of people, animals, nature; teacher; social


Bright emerald green: A healer, also a love-centered person


Yellow-Green: Creative with heart, communicative


Dark or muddy forest green: Jealousy, resentment, feeling like a victim of the world; blaming self or others; insecurity and low self-esteem; lack of understanding personal responsibility; sensitive to perceived criticism


Turquoise: Relates to the immune system.Sensitive, compassionate, healer, therapist.


BLUE AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the throat, thyroid. Cool, calm, and collected. Caring, loving, love to help others, sensitive, intuitive.


Soft blue: Peacefulness, clarity and communication;truthful; intuitive


Bright royal blue: Clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming


Dark or muddy blue: Fear of the future; fear of self-expression; fear of facing or speaking the truth


INDIGO AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the third eye, visual and pituitary gland.Intuitive, sensitive, deep feeling.


VIOLET AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system.The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self.Intuitive, visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.


LAVENDER AURA COLOR MEANING: Imagination, visionary, daydreamer, etheric.


SILVER AURA COLOR MEANING: This is the color of abundance, both spiritual and physical. Lots of bright silver can reflect to plenty of money, and/or awakening of the cosmic mind.


Bright metallic silver: Receptive to new ideas; intuitive; nurturing


Dark and muddy gray: Residue of fear is accumulating in the body, with a potential for health problems, especially if gray clusters seen in specific areas of the body


GOLD AURA COLOR MEANING: The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker.


BLACK AURA COLOR MEANING: Draws or pulls energy to it and in so doing, transforms it. It captures light and consumes it.Usually indicates long-term unforgiveness (toward others or another) collected in a specific area of the body, which can lead to health problems; also, entitities within a person's aura, chakras, or body; past life hurts; unreleased grief from abortions if it appears in the ovaries


WHITE AURA COLOR MEANING: Reflects other energy. A pure state of light. Often represents a new, not yet designated energy in the aura.Spiritual, etheric and non-physical qualities, transcendent, higher dimensions. Purity and truth; angelic qualities.


White sparkles or flashes of white light: angels are nearby;can indicate that the person is pregnant or will be soon


EARTH AURA COLORS: Soil, wood, mineral, plant. These colors display a love of the Earth, of being grounded and is seen in those who live and work on the outdoors....construction, farming, etc. These colors are important and are a good sign.


RAINBOWS: Rainbow-colored stripes, sticking out like sunbeams from the hand, head or body: A Reiki healer, or a starperson (someone who is in the first incarnation on Earth)


PASTELS: A sensitive blend of light and color, more so than basic colors. Shows sensitivity and a need for serenity.


DIRTY BROWN OVERLAY: Holding on to energies. Insecurity.


DIRTY GRAY OVERLY: Blocking energies. Guardedness.


There. The only slight change I would make is the black, which can also be used for protection. I'll try and get one of my teacher's opinions on aura color meanings as well, just so you can all see that too.
Interestingly, my aura is usually gold with hints of orange, while my best friend's aura is typically violet.


Now, the hallucinations.
I'm sick, and yesterday I had some weird dreams and visions. I'm not sure if they were illness and fever induced or if my psychic abilities were on the fritz, but there was some weird stuff going on. There were two different types of guns, one a regular gun and one a laser gun that someone pointed right at me (uncomfortable there...) an owl that got its wings ripped off (poor owl!) and some beings, which I know were not dreams but really freaked me out. They're gone now, but that was not fun, and it left behind a lot of negative energy. I used a bell and sage incense to get rid of the energy (white sage, good for positive energy, according to one of my teachers) and I have a black rock with me now for protection, but it still wasn't fun. I think they came because I was feeling pretty negative and so they were attracted and made everything worse. I'm going to talk to a teacher soon about how to prevent them from attacking me and others while we're sick (or asleep, since I've been getting that a lot) but it was not fun and this is me asking for help from anyone who might have combated the same issue and also for anyone who might be having the same problem as me: how do you stop beings from getting to you while you're sick or asleep? Any help offered would be good, thanks.
Also, at some points, because most of it was set in my room, it was hard to tell if I was awake or asleep. Also not fun. I felt slightly insane...bleah.


So that's it, going now. Comment away!

Monday, May 28, 2012

Secret Society of Mine

Ashe (or Emily) here. Purple being my favorite color, I started with it.


Over the past few years, I've learned a lot about things like angels, psychics...demons...dreams and other things.


Basically, I'm psychic, and so's my best friend. This blog is sort of my way of putting out any thoughts I may (or may not) have on anything to do with psychic abilities, soulmates, twin flames, dream interpretation and other such things. It's also a way to try and help other people like me and my best friend. So you know you're not crazy and you're not alone.


My friend's doing something similar, and I'll do this right now before I forget:
http://indigojuliet11.blogspot.com/ (I think this one's more on the twin flame type stuff)
http://ciaproductionz.blogspot.com/ (this one's more general psychic stuff)
The links to my best friend's blogs. (*whispers* click them...)


Now, I suppose I should explain some stuff and put into context what I'm really doing here and set out a few rules for us all...


First of all, I'm psychic (already established, yes?) and there are a lot of us out there, more than you'd probably think. You're not crazy, neither am I and nor is my best friend. 
Now, maybe you're Rainbow, Indigo, Crystal, Diamond, something in between or maybe you just don't like the titles. Whatever it is, you're welcome here! We're all equal and we can all get along. :)


What I'm trying to achieve is to let other kids like me know you aren't insane, and to let people not like us know that we're not insane, and there's a lot of us out there. (The proof: you're reading this, and I'm not insane. Well...no, I'm kidding, I'm really not insane, and neither is anyone else out there who's like me and my best friend.) I'm here to help anyone who wants it, or just to discuss things people have seen, heard, suspect, know, touch, whatever it might be, if you want to talk about it, think it's psychic, or have a question (or five) then post away!
Now, here's the bottom line: we're not crazy, and we're not better or worse than anyone else because we're different. We're not alone, and we're just strange in an excellent and amazing way. It doesn't make us freaks, it makes us unique.


On this blog, I'll be writing about things I see, hear, sense, touch, see, know, suspect, whatever it is that I want to post. Not everything I write will be entirely about being psychic or what I experience, but a lot of it will be. Maybe what I write won't be what you believe, but it's my 'truth'. And hey, if it's yours as well, that's great! We should talk about it or something!
I've been through a lot to get to where I am, and I'm still going through some stuff, and I'm still learning as I go. But along the journey to get here, I've learned a lot that I want to share, and maybe I'll be able to help someone else out there. Maybe you'll teach me something new. Who really knows? All I can say is that I hope to help others with this blog, teach people like me new things about whatever, answer questions, learn and try and be useful to you in any way I can.


The Rules Which, If Broken, Will Bring Upon You Doom (Just kidding, but seriously, don't break them.):
1. NO bullying.
2. NO putting others down, posting mean things, being rude, or anything like it. Feel free to disagree with others but do it politely.
3. Try, please, to watch your language. I don't personally mind swearing all that much, but others may, be considerate.
Problem with these rules? Don't post.


This blog is based off a non-religious point of view. It's for world peace, love, light and hope and healing, and I don't agree with any one religion. Regardless of religion, we're all connected and we need to see each other as such. Don't judge others based on race, age or religion--just let them be people, equal to you and everyone else.


A lot of what I write will be what I already know, feel, think or learn as I go, and it's not necessarily based off of something someone else has said, although I do have teachers I trust very much, whose opinion I ask for on some things and who I may ask to answer a question for myself or someone else. Still, a lot of what I write is raw and coming straight from me or the angels (I channel). So if what I see or know is the same or similar to you, that's really cool. We're not insane. But hey, if you have different psychic gifts than me, that doesn't make you any less sane (you're still not insane) and I'd like to hear about your different experiences and what you know and have to offer. It's good that we're all different from each other because it gives us each something unique to offer, and makes us original and diverse.
By the way, I might be posting something from a few of my teachers who consent to having something on my blog every so often.


Labels. There are labels: Diamond, Rainbow, Crystal and Indigo. Some people don't have a label--that doesn't mean that you aren't special or unique, and it doesn't mean that you don't have your own path to follow or that you lack anything important to offer. You're still important, unique and needed, and you have a purpose that you will find by following your own path of love and light in this life. If you're something in between some of those labels, then you're like me and my friend because we're in between too. If you firmly classify as one of those labels, fantabulous for you! We all have our own path of love and light to follow, and we all have something special to share and we'll all make a difference in the world. I personally don't believe in labels, and while I may refer to the aforementioned labels, I am very hesitant to even attempt to classify myself and others as those labels.


Myself and everyone I know have come a long way to teach you messages and try and help you, so listen up! This blog is to have fun and help you, not confuse you. If you're confused, please ask a question so I can help, and if you have something to share, go for it!


ABOUT ME!!
I promised I wouldn't be hyper for this, but I give it up now! :D
My name is Emily Ashe Firefly (in my mind anyway) and I'm 15, soon to be 16, somewhere in a small state in a small town is where I live and make my home. It's in New England, isn't that great?
I've had psychic gifts for a while, since I was a kid. Actually, a lot of my "imaginary" friends weren't as imaginary as I used to think. When I was seven-ish, something scared me into blocking out my psychic abilities, and I only started using and retaining them once I met my best friend.
I believe in oneness, the Universe, angels, demons, psychic gifts of all sorts and other beings like dragons or fairies. I also believe in reincarnation, soulmates and twin flames. In fact, I'm in love with a guy I've never met before.
As already said, I don't buy into labels much, and one label doesn't make you more or less special than another person. We are all special, unique and equal, so stop wanting to be someone or something else (if you feel that way). We each have something we need to offer as the person we are. It took me a while to come to terms with this idea, but be comfortable in your own skin.
Another thing I don't buy much into is time. I have difficulties with it, and if I've known someone for a while, I can't remember well how long I've known them because it feels like I've just always known them.
I'm much more of a night person than a day person, and there might be a few or a lot of posts at night.
I'm a Libra/Scorpio zodiac sign, which makes me air/water, and I love the water and I want to fly.
I write books, but none have ever been nor will ever be published, and the same goes for my music.
I channel a lot what I write, even on here. Sometimes I channel what I say.
I'm trying to pour out all I know right here, I'm really tempted to (I'm like that) but there's time for that later, and you will all hear more from me later (soon later).
I like to run. I'm part panther, and I can ethereally shapeshift. I always lose races to my best friend, and I love showers. I like to swim, and I love lemon bars (food) and apples. I love love LOVE coffee, even if it's not so great for me. I want to learn to drive, and SOON, and I love music. My parents annoy me, but don't everyone's parents annoy them sometimes?
I'm in love with a guy I've never met, although I dream about him sometimes. I've never channeled him into writing, but there are a few drawings.
This blog is for me to post thoughts, feelings, ideas, whatever the heck I want to, and to try and help you. We are all unique, and as my best friend would put it, FLAMINGOS! (It's a good thing). So...let's be our own flamingoes, because it's okay to be that!
Which spelling of flamingoes is right? Flamingos? Flamingoes?
I love my guardian angels, panthers, angels, spirit animals and the beings that watch over me. I also love chocolate, but in a different way...I don't want to eat my guardian angels or any of those other beings, haha.
I hope you like my work!
And any other messages other people or angels may put in here.


Love and Light,
Emily Ashe Firefly