Or...not.
(Totally stole a Spongebob line up there.)
So what if this is me, stuck in my head, going:
HELLO! HELLO? I NEED A LITTLE HELP HERE!
That's what I feel like lately. I'm stuck inside my head with everything spinning wildly out of control. Naturally, a page for 'help, please' goes out, and I'm thinking that page is reaching the wrong beings, and they're answering.
Seriously. First it started with, I was just a little stuck, seeing a few things I didn't want to (some of which I suspect to have been projected from my subconscious...) and with a few emotions like depression hovering around on the edge of my mind. So I wanted it to go away, I started asking for a little help with shutting my mind up every now and then so I could feel happier and not see creepy things...all good, right?
Uh...no. Instead of what I wanted to happen, something like this is now me:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LIFE IS SO--oh my God, I'm so sad and depressed and *sniffle*--COMMERCIALS? ARGH! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! *chucks remote to the TV on the floor and spends the next ten minutes searching for the batteries*
And this:
Needles! Ow! STOP POKING ME WITH NEEDLES AND OTHER SHARP OBJECTS!
And seeing the ceiling move, and bloodstains on the wall, and having weird thoughts I can't get away from that I either don't want to have or aren't even mine in the first place. Fun.
And there are shadowy beings following me around and sometimes, their words come out of my mouth instead of MY words.
And I'm having weird black holes in my memory, and someone will say to me, "We went here this morning, don't you remember?" and I don't remember. So I'm just a TAD concerned here....(did you catch the sarcasm? I'm actually really, REALLY concerned here.)
I suspect much of this is caused by dark beings following me around, and somehow, some of them have actually showed up in my room, even when they never could before. I don't know really what's going on, but I cleared them out of my room and I will not let them come back. Period.
I still feel like I'm going insane, and I figure it's partly me, partly them--although I'd be doing a lot better without the 'partly them'. I'm trying to get rid of them, but so far, no dice....they're here to stay, so they tell me.
Fun.
Well, they're going to go one way or the other, because I want my mind back to myself, so I can get out of it and so it will stop falling to pieces and creating hallucinations.
There are a few solutions I have found for my problems, and on top of sharing my life with you all, that's why I'm writing this, to share said solutions:
Crystals. One for protection, one for headaches (THEY'RE BACK FROM THE DEAD!), one for healing my mind....yeah.
Angels. I'm going to ask them for help. According to Coral (best friend) Raphael would be the angel to ask for help with fixing the insanity of my mind...and my guardian angels are probably best for keeping the dark beings away from me. I'll just have to make sure they're really my guardian angels and not dark beings pretending to be the angels...
So...wish me luck, please. Those are the solutions for this issue, and if anyone has anything to add, PLEASE COMMENT.
~Ashe
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Demons and Hallucinations
Oh, hey, if anyone's wondering why I named the last post 'Secret Society of Mine' it's because a, I felt like it, and b, this kind of does feel like a secret society.
Now, on to my more important stuff.
I was at this field trip for school with my friends a few days ago. It was an end-of-the-year-last-day sort of thing, and so for a while I was kind of hanging out by myself and there were a lot of people who weren't really people around. Mostly demons and spirits. And they were doing stuff like poking, and sticking me with needles, and I figure by the end of the day I must have looked like an ethereal porcupine. Gotta love porcupines. Anyway, I had a tough time dealing with that when I just wanted to hang out with people, and so I asked the angels to make them go away and hey, what do you know, it worked! I had fun the second half of the day. Lesson learned: that's how to deal with demons and such. Try and ask the angels to make them go away.
Now, if you're like my best friend, who had demons pretending to be angels and her guardian angels...I'm not quite sure how to deal with that yet. Possibly using obsidian (black rock) for protection might be good, but that probably isn't enough. I'll ask one of my teachers about it and post their response on here soon for anyone who's having that issue. If anyone's had that issue and dealt with it with good results, please share what you did in a comment, to help other people. Thanks!
By the way, black is a color of protection, but that doesn't mean it's a color you'd want to see in an aura. While black in an aura can sometimes mean protection, it can also mean rage or jealousy, so if you see black in someone's aura, be wary, and don't assume it means protection. Here's a list of aura color meanings I've found to be pretty reliable:
RED AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the physical body, hart or circulation.The densest color, it creates the most friction. Friction attracts or repels; money worries or obsessions; anger or unforgiveness; anxiety or nervousness
Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.
Muddied red: Anger (repelling)
Clear red: Powerful, energetic, competitive, sexual, passionate
Pink-bright and light: Loving, tender, sensitive, sensual, artistic, affection, purity, compassion;new or revieved romantic relationship. Can indicate clairaudience.
Dark and murky pink: Immature and/or dishonest nature
Orange Red: Confidence, creative power
In a good, bright and pure state, red energy can serve as a healthy ego.
ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions.The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to apetites and addictions;
Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.
YELLOW AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the spleen and life energy. It is the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going.
Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.
Bright lemon-yellow: Struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship; fear of losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power.
Clear gold metallic, shiny and bright: Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person.
Dark brownish yellow or gold: A student, or one who is straining at studying; overly analitical to the point of feeling fatigued or stressed; trying to make up for "lost time" by learning everything all at once.
GREEN AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to heart and lungs.It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change.Love of people, animals, nature; teacher; social
Bright emerald green: A healer, also a love-centered person
Yellow-Green: Creative with heart, communicative
Dark or muddy forest green: Jealousy, resentment, feeling like a victim of the world; blaming self or others; insecurity and low self-esteem; lack of understanding personal responsibility; sensitive to perceived criticism
Turquoise: Relates to the immune system.Sensitive, compassionate, healer, therapist.
BLUE AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the throat, thyroid. Cool, calm, and collected. Caring, loving, love to help others, sensitive, intuitive.
Soft blue: Peacefulness, clarity and communication;truthful; intuitive
Bright royal blue: Clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming
Dark or muddy blue: Fear of the future; fear of self-expression; fear of facing or speaking the truth
INDIGO AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the third eye, visual and pituitary gland.Intuitive, sensitive, deep feeling.
VIOLET AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system.The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self.Intuitive, visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.
LAVENDER AURA COLOR MEANING: Imagination, visionary, daydreamer, etheric.
SILVER AURA COLOR MEANING: This is the color of abundance, both spiritual and physical. Lots of bright silver can reflect to plenty of money, and/or awakening of the cosmic mind.
Bright metallic silver: Receptive to new ideas; intuitive; nurturing
Dark and muddy gray: Residue of fear is accumulating in the body, with a potential for health problems, especially if gray clusters seen in specific areas of the body
GOLD AURA COLOR MEANING: The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker.
BLACK AURA COLOR MEANING: Draws or pulls energy to it and in so doing, transforms it. It captures light and consumes it.Usually indicates long-term unforgiveness (toward others or another) collected in a specific area of the body, which can lead to health problems; also, entitities within a person's aura, chakras, or body; past life hurts; unreleased grief from abortions if it appears in the ovaries
WHITE AURA COLOR MEANING: Reflects other energy. A pure state of light. Often represents a new, not yet designated energy in the aura.Spiritual, etheric and non-physical qualities, transcendent, higher dimensions. Purity and truth; angelic qualities.
White sparkles or flashes of white light: angels are nearby;can indicate that the person is pregnant or will be soon
EARTH AURA COLORS: Soil, wood, mineral, plant. These colors display a love of the Earth, of being grounded and is seen in those who live and work on the outdoors....construction, farming, etc. These colors are important and are a good sign.
RAINBOWS: Rainbow-colored stripes, sticking out like sunbeams from the hand, head or body: A Reiki healer, or a starperson (someone who is in the first incarnation on Earth)
PASTELS: A sensitive blend of light and color, more so than basic colors. Shows sensitivity and a need for serenity.
DIRTY BROWN OVERLAY: Holding on to energies. Insecurity.
DIRTY GRAY OVERLY: Blocking energies. Guardedness.
There. The only slight change I would make is the black, which can also be used for protection. I'll try and get one of my teacher's opinions on aura color meanings as well, just so you can all see that too.
Interestingly, my aura is usually gold with hints of orange, while my best friend's aura is typically violet.
Now, the hallucinations.
I'm sick, and yesterday I had some weird dreams and visions. I'm not sure if they were illness and fever induced or if my psychic abilities were on the fritz, but there was some weird stuff going on. There were two different types of guns, one a regular gun and one a laser gun that someone pointed right at me (uncomfortable there...) an owl that got its wings ripped off (poor owl!) and some beings, which I know were not dreams but really freaked me out. They're gone now, but that was not fun, and it left behind a lot of negative energy. I used a bell and sage incense to get rid of the energy (white sage, good for positive energy, according to one of my teachers) and I have a black rock with me now for protection, but it still wasn't fun. I think they came because I was feeling pretty negative and so they were attracted and made everything worse. I'm going to talk to a teacher soon about how to prevent them from attacking me and others while we're sick (or asleep, since I've been getting that a lot) but it was not fun and this is me asking for help from anyone who might have combated the same issue and also for anyone who might be having the same problem as me: how do you stop beings from getting to you while you're sick or asleep? Any help offered would be good, thanks.
Also, at some points, because most of it was set in my room, it was hard to tell if I was awake or asleep. Also not fun. I felt slightly insane...bleah.
So that's it, going now. Comment away!
Now, on to my more important stuff.
I was at this field trip for school with my friends a few days ago. It was an end-of-the-year-last-day sort of thing, and so for a while I was kind of hanging out by myself and there were a lot of people who weren't really people around. Mostly demons and spirits. And they were doing stuff like poking, and sticking me with needles, and I figure by the end of the day I must have looked like an ethereal porcupine. Gotta love porcupines. Anyway, I had a tough time dealing with that when I just wanted to hang out with people, and so I asked the angels to make them go away and hey, what do you know, it worked! I had fun the second half of the day. Lesson learned: that's how to deal with demons and such. Try and ask the angels to make them go away.
Now, if you're like my best friend, who had demons pretending to be angels and her guardian angels...I'm not quite sure how to deal with that yet. Possibly using obsidian (black rock) for protection might be good, but that probably isn't enough. I'll ask one of my teachers about it and post their response on here soon for anyone who's having that issue. If anyone's had that issue and dealt with it with good results, please share what you did in a comment, to help other people. Thanks!
By the way, black is a color of protection, but that doesn't mean it's a color you'd want to see in an aura. While black in an aura can sometimes mean protection, it can also mean rage or jealousy, so if you see black in someone's aura, be wary, and don't assume it means protection. Here's a list of aura color meanings I've found to be pretty reliable:
RED AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the physical body, hart or circulation.The densest color, it creates the most friction. Friction attracts or repels; money worries or obsessions; anger or unforgiveness; anxiety or nervousness
Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.
Muddied red: Anger (repelling)
Clear red: Powerful, energetic, competitive, sexual, passionate
Pink-bright and light: Loving, tender, sensitive, sensual, artistic, affection, purity, compassion;new or revieved romantic relationship. Can indicate clairaudience.
Dark and murky pink: Immature and/or dishonest nature
Orange Red: Confidence, creative power
In a good, bright and pure state, red energy can serve as a healthy ego.
ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions.The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to apetites and addictions;
Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.
YELLOW AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the spleen and life energy. It is the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going.
Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.
Bright lemon-yellow: Struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship; fear of losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power.
Clear gold metallic, shiny and bright: Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person.
Dark brownish yellow or gold: A student, or one who is straining at studying; overly analitical to the point of feeling fatigued or stressed; trying to make up for "lost time" by learning everything all at once.
GREEN AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to heart and lungs.It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change.Love of people, animals, nature; teacher; social
Bright emerald green: A healer, also a love-centered person
Yellow-Green: Creative with heart, communicative
Dark or muddy forest green: Jealousy, resentment, feeling like a victim of the world; blaming self or others; insecurity and low self-esteem; lack of understanding personal responsibility; sensitive to perceived criticism
Turquoise: Relates to the immune system.Sensitive, compassionate, healer, therapist.
BLUE AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the throat, thyroid. Cool, calm, and collected. Caring, loving, love to help others, sensitive, intuitive.
Soft blue: Peacefulness, clarity and communication;truthful; intuitive
Bright royal blue: Clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming
Dark or muddy blue: Fear of the future; fear of self-expression; fear of facing or speaking the truth
INDIGO AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the third eye, visual and pituitary gland.Intuitive, sensitive, deep feeling.
VIOLET AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system.The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self.Intuitive, visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.
LAVENDER AURA COLOR MEANING: Imagination, visionary, daydreamer, etheric.
SILVER AURA COLOR MEANING: This is the color of abundance, both spiritual and physical. Lots of bright silver can reflect to plenty of money, and/or awakening of the cosmic mind.
Bright metallic silver: Receptive to new ideas; intuitive; nurturing
Dark and muddy gray: Residue of fear is accumulating in the body, with a potential for health problems, especially if gray clusters seen in specific areas of the body
GOLD AURA COLOR MEANING: The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker.
BLACK AURA COLOR MEANING: Draws or pulls energy to it and in so doing, transforms it. It captures light and consumes it.Usually indicates long-term unforgiveness (toward others or another) collected in a specific area of the body, which can lead to health problems; also, entitities within a person's aura, chakras, or body; past life hurts; unreleased grief from abortions if it appears in the ovaries
WHITE AURA COLOR MEANING: Reflects other energy. A pure state of light. Often represents a new, not yet designated energy in the aura.Spiritual, etheric and non-physical qualities, transcendent, higher dimensions. Purity and truth; angelic qualities.
White sparkles or flashes of white light: angels are nearby;can indicate that the person is pregnant or will be soon
EARTH AURA COLORS: Soil, wood, mineral, plant. These colors display a love of the Earth, of being grounded and is seen in those who live and work on the outdoors....construction, farming, etc. These colors are important and are a good sign.
RAINBOWS: Rainbow-colored stripes, sticking out like sunbeams from the hand, head or body: A Reiki healer, or a starperson (someone who is in the first incarnation on Earth)
PASTELS: A sensitive blend of light and color, more so than basic colors. Shows sensitivity and a need for serenity.
DIRTY BROWN OVERLAY: Holding on to energies. Insecurity.
DIRTY GRAY OVERLY: Blocking energies. Guardedness.
There. The only slight change I would make is the black, which can also be used for protection. I'll try and get one of my teacher's opinions on aura color meanings as well, just so you can all see that too.
Interestingly, my aura is usually gold with hints of orange, while my best friend's aura is typically violet.
Now, the hallucinations.
I'm sick, and yesterday I had some weird dreams and visions. I'm not sure if they were illness and fever induced or if my psychic abilities were on the fritz, but there was some weird stuff going on. There were two different types of guns, one a regular gun and one a laser gun that someone pointed right at me (uncomfortable there...) an owl that got its wings ripped off (poor owl!) and some beings, which I know were not dreams but really freaked me out. They're gone now, but that was not fun, and it left behind a lot of negative energy. I used a bell and sage incense to get rid of the energy (white sage, good for positive energy, according to one of my teachers) and I have a black rock with me now for protection, but it still wasn't fun. I think they came because I was feeling pretty negative and so they were attracted and made everything worse. I'm going to talk to a teacher soon about how to prevent them from attacking me and others while we're sick (or asleep, since I've been getting that a lot) but it was not fun and this is me asking for help from anyone who might have combated the same issue and also for anyone who might be having the same problem as me: how do you stop beings from getting to you while you're sick or asleep? Any help offered would be good, thanks.
Also, at some points, because most of it was set in my room, it was hard to tell if I was awake or asleep. Also not fun. I felt slightly insane...bleah.
So that's it, going now. Comment away!
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