At Least I'm Safe Inside My Mind...

Or...not.
(Totally stole a Spongebob line up there.)


So what if this is me, stuck in my head, going:
HELLO! HELLO? I NEED A LITTLE HELP HERE!
That's what I feel like lately. I'm stuck inside my head with everything spinning wildly out of control. Naturally, a page for 'help, please' goes out, and I'm thinking that page is reaching the wrong beings, and they're answering.


Seriously. First it started with, I was just a little stuck, seeing a few things I didn't want to (some of which I suspect to have been projected from my subconscious...) and with a few emotions like depression hovering around on the edge of my mind. So I wanted it to go away, I started asking for a little help with shutting my mind up every now and then so I could feel happier and not see creepy things...all good, right?
Uh...no. Instead of what I wanted to happen, something like this is now me:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LIFE IS SO--oh my God, I'm so sad and depressed and *sniffle*--COMMERCIALS? ARGH! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! *chucks remote to the TV on the floor and spends the next ten minutes searching for the batteries*
And this:
Needles! Ow! STOP POKING ME WITH NEEDLES AND OTHER SHARP OBJECTS!
And seeing the ceiling move, and bloodstains on the wall, and having weird thoughts I can't get away from that I either don't want to have or aren't even mine in the first place. Fun.
And there are shadowy beings following me around and sometimes, their words come out of my mouth instead of MY words.
And I'm having weird black holes in my memory, and someone will say to me, "We went here this morning, don't you remember?" and I don't remember. So I'm just a TAD concerned here....(did you catch the sarcasm? I'm actually really, REALLY concerned here.)


I suspect much of this is caused by dark beings following me around, and somehow, some of them have actually showed up in my room, even when they never could before. I don't know really what's going on, but I cleared them out of my room and I will not let them come back. Period.
I still feel like I'm going insane, and I figure it's partly me, partly them--although I'd be doing a lot better without the 'partly them'. I'm trying to get rid of them, but so far, no dice....they're here to stay, so they tell me.
Fun.


Well, they're going to go one way or the other, because I want my mind back to myself, so I can get out of it and so it will stop falling to pieces and creating hallucinations.


There are a few solutions I have found for my problems, and on top of sharing my life with you all, that's why I'm writing this, to share said solutions:
Crystals. One for protection, one for headaches (THEY'RE BACK FROM THE DEAD!), one for healing my mind....yeah.
Angels. I'm going to ask them for help. According to Coral (best friend) Raphael would be the angel to ask for help with fixing the insanity of my mind...and my guardian angels are probably best for keeping the dark beings away from me. I'll just have to make sure they're really my guardian angels and not dark beings pretending to be the angels...
So...wish me luck, please. Those are the solutions for this issue, and if anyone has anything to add, PLEASE COMMENT.
~Ashe